A father- son relationship
For more than 30 years that I have known God. It has been like a father- son relationship, since the first day I received the Holy Spirit. Being a child of God has many flavors, both happiness and sadness, both anger and joy. Sometimes I feel God is so far away or already left me. And this was one reason why I did not go to church for more than 20 years. However the father-son relationship that I had with Him in the beginning has never changed. Until the year 2011 on wards our relationship has been getting better. It has become like adult-adult relationship and He has been teaching me in a new way. I would like to share with you these experiences. My purpose is that you get to have a picture of this father- son relationship.
Whose voice is this?
This experience happened 30 years ago, in a party our cousin arranged for Uncle Vichai Trangkasombat. Uncle Vichai moved to station in Hong Kong as a Director of the Coca-Cola Corporation in East Asia. He led a very important project of building the first Coca-Cola factory in The Republic of China. He came back to visit relatives and stayed at my father’s house. After the party he talked about the miracles that God has done in China. I myself would like to know whether the God that Uncle Vichai talked about was the greatest of all the gods of this world.
The reason that I had this question went back some years ago when I was almost drowned in the sea at Pakmeng Beach, in the south of Thailand. While I was trying to get above the water in order to breathe, I prayed to the most sacred being, the greatest God of all, whoever that might be, to save my life. Then I heard a voice saying something to me. For many years afterwards I searched for that voice. Who spoke to me in that moment?
On that night Uncle Vichai said he would pray for me. He encouraged me to ask his God any questions I had. I wrote my questions on two pages of paper, to ask when his God came and stayed on him. Then we sang many songs from the hymn book and wait for his God to visit us. I was also meditating in order to be focused and alert about what happened in the room. But as I was meditating my head was held up which was very unusual. The normal posture when meditating is one with your head down. I tried to force my head down twice but it was still up. At the third time I heard a voice saying, “Above”. It was the same voice I heard when I was almost drowned at Pakmeng Beach. When I asked people in the prayer meeting what “above” meant . Then someone quoted Colossians3:2 “Set your minds on things above”. I suddenly tore the paper as I knew right away that searching for the highest god could not be through this method.
Searched for the greatest Spirit
Uncle Vichai told me that God is a Spirit and anyone can talk to Him. Growing up in Buddhist country and Buddhist family I have a lot of experiences in the spiritual world. I have learned that in spiritual world there is hierarchy, one spirit is greater than another and I can tell which one is greater. (I don’t know how and why I can tell.) So if Uncle Vichai’s God is spirit, it will not be difficult for me to tell if He is the greatest Spirit or not. I was very sure that with the experiences I had with the spiritual world I would be able to tell.
I went back to my room and started to pray. It was an invitation for the Spirit of God to come into my heart. I would allow only the spirit of Jesus Christ from Nazareth, the son of God. While praying I sensed a spirit trying to come in but I was afraid it would be other spirit or a ghost so I resisted. This happened twice. I finally thought that if it continued like this I would not be able to know God. So I decided to go to Uncle Vichai and asked him to help invite the spirit of God for me.
Accepted the Holy Spirit
I went to Uncle Vichai’s room and told him what I wanted. He laid his hand on my head and prayed for me to receive the Holy Spirit. While he prayed I started to cry very loud. I fell down on the floor, my tears spilled all over the floor. I spoke in tongues, mixed with Thai. All of the bad things that I did in the past flashed before my eyes like a movie. I felt deep sorrow. And suddenly I jumped so joyfully. I saw Uncle Vichai and his wife smile at me. I told them that God had forgiven me. I was free of all sins. I jumped around the room with joy. I saw many towels that my aunt put into every hole under the door to prevent the noise that I made to get out of the room and disturb other people. The towel that was used to dry my tears was soaked. I thought to myself that I “went too far” and “acted like crazy”.
But it was a night of great joy!
Learned the Bible
The next day I woke up early in the morning to read the Bible. I felt as if someone was explaining the bible to me. A while after that I received a phone call from a famous pastor. He congratulated me on my accepting Jesus and the Holy Spirit. He proposed to come and teach me the Bible. He said I needed to learn more especially about the interpretation of what was written in the bible. He read some verses to me on the phone. I told him my understanding of those verses. He read more verse and again I explained my interpretation . He told me that I could call him anytime if I wanted to study the Bible. I was surprised how I could explain the Bible without having read or studied it before. Then it dawned on me that every verse the pastor was trying to teach me, God just taught me in the morning. That was the first miracle that happened to me.
Call Him “Papa”
During that time I was able to communicate with God all the time, whenever I wanted. I was surprised that I called Him “Papa” and I called myself “Pak” or “we”. ‘Pak’ is my nickname and ‘we’ is the word the southerner use to call him or herself while talking to another person. People at church usually call God ‘Heavenly Father’. The church usually use royal words to honor God. But my language was down- to- earth. I used no special words. The conversation that I had with God was like a child talking to his father. There was no need to be careful about the words. Everything came from the heart.
I also asked many weird questions like a child. The feeling of being God’s child was very strong. Our relationship had been like father and son until I attended church regularly and had more Christian friends . The influence of the church engulfed me little by little. When I first went to church I felt that the teaching at the church was strange as it was different from what I did learn from God in the early morning of everyday. Not very long confusion set in and the learning of the Bible with God stopped. Life became like ordinary Christian. Although at the time I was still speaking in tongues and was able to prophesy correctly and quickly.
Prophetic experiences
When I prophesied I would compare it with Uncle Vichai. During that time Uncle Vichai came to stay at my house. Many elders of the church came to pray with him and asked him to prophesy for their problems. I was also present at this meeting. I heard their questions and I wrote them down together with the answers I received. Then I waited until Uncle Vichai prayed and prophesied. Then I compared the answers that I received from God with Uncle Vichai’s answers. It came out that my prophecies were the same as his. For some questions I received no answer and I left it blank. It turned out that Uncle Vichai did not get the answer from God either. Such questions were mostly personal. For questions related to church work I mostly got answers from God. I remember that there was only one question that God did not answer. It was about a pastor who sold the land of the church. God prohibited me not to get involved or even listened to his story. I have learned about what God likes or not like though these prophetic experiences.
“I did not intend for you to become a fortuneteller”.
The validity of my prophecies made me well known. Many people came to see me and asked me to prophesy for them. At that time I acted like a fortuneteller. Whoever wanted to know anything came in and told me their problems. When they finished their stories I would write them answers. I received answers very fast that sometimes they had not finished telling their question yet, I already got the answer. I was surprised at the way I came to know a lot of things. It was like I saw it with my own eyes even though it was hidden.
But one day the Lord scolded me. He said, “I did not intend for you to be a fortuneteller”. Afterwards that my prophecy became invalid. I then made decision that I would not prophesy anymore as it would cause problems than solve problems, especially issue about life and death.
In the beginning the conversation with God was so clear, it was like a sound in my head. I was very confident that it was God’s voice. Later on it became more like a feeling or an impression or a belief that God wanted me to do this or that. But this was not 100% correct as in the beginning. So I became less confident and did not want to prophesy anymore. Then I started to move from church to church, and finally I did not attend any church at all.
Almost went to jail
When my second son graduated from the university, I decided to have a life of my own. I would like to work for God so He would be proud of me. At that time my older brother became a monk. He left a big piece of land in Chaiyaphum (in the northeast) for me to take care. So I decided to go to Chaiyaphum to start some project. I planned a good project that would raise the standard of living of local people. I dedicated all the money that I had for this project. But then there was some problems regarding the land. I refused to pay the money. The officer pressed charge against me and I almost had to go to prison.
I fought for justice. The fight continued for more than two years and finally the charge was dismissed with prejudice. I was so overwhelmed and exhausted. Once in a while I thought I should have paid those officers as the amount they asked from me was smaller, just a few million baht. To fight for my case cost me more in terms of money, my health and my family. The reason I chose to fight and did not pay the bribe because I did not want the project I did for God to be ‘contaminated’. In business it is normal to pay a bribe,. This is why corruptions in Thailand cannot be eradicated.
For sure during that time I was mad at God. But to be sincere I have to admit that the project in Chaiyaphum was my own idea. God did not tell me to do it. But I thought I ‘should’ do it and it was possible for me to do it anyway. This is a very important lesson that God has taught me. I have learned that moving in the Holy Spirit is a must. It is not a choice, to move or not move.
In my later teaching I encouraged people to move in the Holy Spirit. I did not teach about to listen to God voice as I used to taught 30 years ago.
The area where the project in Chaiyaphum is situated is the strategic point in spiritual warfare. Nowadays the project is in the care of the Living Streams Church, under the guidance of Pastor Chee Kang Seng. I appreciate the work of Pastor Kang Seng and his team very much.
While driving to Samui along the road from Thepsathit District to Saraburi Province, what happened in past flashed before my eyes like a movie. I saw clearly how God delivered me. All the details, hour by hour and minute by minute where He intervened and helped me was clearly shown. I wept in the car, tears all over my face. I said, “Thank you, Lord.” Then I asked for forgiveness that I complained and blamed him during my difficult times. On that day I learned how much He loved me. It was like the moment I first received the Holy Spirit.
Although I went to Samui to help my family, I think it was part of God’s plan.
When I stopped in Bangkok before driving down to Samui, God told me to go to church.
At first I refused but later on I gave in. It was Sunday and I went to church very early. I waited outside as the church door was not open yet. After services people are leaving but I still waiting to be the last person. While waiting I met a lady who was a ‘prayer worrior’. Later on I came to realize that God sent her to pray for me, as I rarely pray. Chawengburi Resort has become the house of God and He has used it for His homecoming in April 2016.
Homecoming 2016
In this Homecoming there were leaders from around the world and there was a spiritual breakthrough. It was a reconciliation between the Arabs and the Jews. We sang ‘Joy to the World’ in the World Gathering on Nov 7, 2016 in front of more than 3000 Christian people from around the World. It was to proclaim that the Kingdom of God has come.
The details of this can be read in “Why they sing this song, ‘Joy to the World’?”
From a child to adult
The father-child relationship between God and me has grown into one of adult relationship. To grow like an adult means to have knowledge and understanding at a deeper level, to know the heart of God and to have a yearning to do whatever is His, to please him as a beloved child pleases his father.
Started a Christian Center
Beside the administrative work at the resort, there was a renovation work. We renovated each room by adding a Jacuzzi. It was a very hard work as I had to supervise the construction by myself. However, I finally I opened a Christian center at the Resort.
In the beginning we had English worship every Wednesday. On Friday it was Thai worship. On Monday it was prayer group between workers at the resort. Many tourists stopped by to worship with us including friends and pastors. There was no money collection. When the meeting was over we ate meals together. My teaching style is asking questions and encouraging them to think and find out the answers. The Holy Spirit guided me and gave me ideas in teaching. Sometimes it was preaching. But most of the time it was discerning together. I also follow up whether there were changes in the members’ lives. Later on I started to have meeting every morning and evening at six o’clock so workers with different shifts would be able to join. We learned and grew up in spirit very fast and this fast pace happened again when I taught our members how to move in the Holy Spirit. During that time the Holy Spirit taught us everyday. Now it is the time to practice what we have learned.
I think that my life is always on the go, with movements, changes and growth. From contemplation on the Words of God, it developed into writing this blog for you all.
May the Lord bless you as you read all of my writings!
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